it's 3
i have to be up at 5.
i haven't wrote in awhile, and honestly, it's been nice to be away from the computer.
it's given me a little time to think. to put things a bit more into perspective, although i don't know how much more thinking i can do because sometimes i feel like i already know a lot of the answers and justifications behind actions and thoughts. i realize i don't have all of the answers, but i'm saying there are times where it feels like that. that i have life completely figured out.
school starts tomorrow.
i'm not nervous.
i'm not dreading it completely.
part of me cannot wait to get myself back into a schedule.
something about this time of night, or day depending on how you look at things, makes john mayer even more amazing.
i cannot fight this feeling that everything is coming together as it should.
everything is fitting into place. and coming together nicely.
that it's all leading up to something a bit more grand. a bit more worthwhile.
maybe this is just wishful thinking. maybe i'm just dreamer. maybe i'm reading farther into things than i should be. maybe i'm just leading myself up to a great heartbreak and disappointment.
