self acceptance.
self love.
two of the most important things on this earth.
there are so many reasons for each person on this earth
to absolutely hate themselves.
to let that flame lick your skin longer, the blade go deeper,
and for a few more pills to dance down your throat.
the world we live in is wretched. it's full of deceitful, hateful,
conceited creatures.
yet, somehow through all of these negative attributes, we find
people who love us. the ones who pray that we won't find the
'courage' to do unspeakable things to ourselves behind closed doors.
these people, are the reason each of us drag ourselves out of bed each day.
without them, we are nothing.
they are what makes this fucked up world keep going.
despite all of our self loathe and hate, they find something in us
that they view as amazing. something that makes them, drives them,
to keep talking to our sorry, pathetic selves.
these are the golden people. a rare and dying species of human.
they are as rare and precious as the title they have been given.
they are pure. they are beautiful. they are to be admired.
but they are usually misused and tarnished with age.
to those golden people who i have somehow stumbled upon:
thank you.
i could go for days about why i appreciate you. why i love you.
but, a simple thank you says more than the millions of words i could say.
i believe to be loved, we must first love ourselves.
and if this is so, i just made a hypocritical statement.
but in each of us. we have a dim light that shines continuously.
when we ace that test, master that next level, make somebody happy...
that is when that flame grows, if only for a brief second. and for that second
we find our own self love. it may not last, but it's there. we all have been
given the potential to love ourselves.
i also believe that is on of the major reasons we are on this earth.
so love ourselves. to accept our flaws. to grow from our mistakes that
bound us to pasts we'd rather forget with age.
once we have learned that we're not half as bad as we so harshly can view ourselves...
we can continue our journey on this earth.
it is so easy to love others. but do we love them for who they are?
or do we love them for the things we want, the things we wish we could be?
is it merely admiration disguised as love?
or do we 'love' them for how they make us feel?
do we love them for building us up when our world crumbles down around us?
is it truly possible that we love these people around us...
for THEIR flaws. for their mistakes. for their imperfections.
for how we make them feel when they are in need.
i've currently lost my way with words. my metaphors have escaped me.
perhaps i needed to put these thoughts directly out there. and not cloak them
in phrases that need further explanation.
maybe it's time i stop hiding completely behind my comparisons.
maybe it's time to expose myself a bit more, although the people who read this
already know exactly what i'm talking about, hence the metaphors serve no actual
purpose to anyone other than myself and those i don't wish to completely enter
my mind.
enough rambling. enough.
