i can't seem to find the right words
to the thoughts i'm trying to process.
why waste time trying to find
lengthly words, when you won't remember
the things i've so desperately tried to convey.
you are the song i've grown to love with age.
you are the comfort you can only find during winter naps.
you are the controlled chaos i want to be a part of.
the wishful thinking that flows through my mind
as the hours slip away and blend into one another,
falls short of actually meaning something.
things would be far easier in a different time and a different place.
you are a world away from me.
and these silly words are a poor portrayal of what i'd really like to say,
but each word has been carefully thought out and put down with care.
we're not always supposed to get what we want,
that's where settling slowly makes it's entrance.
and maybe i don't want to settle, maybe i want catastrophe.
maybe i want to hurt just to feel a minute of the risk i'd be willing to take.
regardless of what may come or what has been, i will love you.
i will love you for your mistakes.
i will love you for your triumphs.
i will love you for your silly way with words.
i will love you for your open arms and gentle heart.
i'd like to believe i know a part of you that no one else gets to see,
a side that is vulnerable, and perhaps scared of what may happen.
i don't know who you are, but i want to.
i want to know everything that you're willing to tell me.
i'm already scared of what i might find... let's hope not.
"i want to save you, i need you to save me too"
maybe these words bear little impact,
but at least i tried.
i will be with you
xo
